Once I was broken I made sure this doesn't happen again
So went and found my own place caved up in a shell
Things were good life was good It was treating me well
Until I met you and things started going to hell
I started going to hell met the devil himself
Things went so fast didn't have the time to second guess
Found me a mirror so I found a way to stop and reflect
Realized its been a while since I looked at myself
People ask me all the time how you smile when you breaking
I say its been a while so I just got used to the faking
I want it to stop I'm tired of waiting
You never understand and I'm tired of translating
Got rid of my heart now I'm sure you can't break it
Studied every mistake to be sure I won't make it
That's my problem you see I want everything so perfect
And nothing really is that's why I'm always so nervous
Is this really worth it? Baby tell me so
These questions on my mind yeah they devastate my soul
Always wasting time on things I can't control
Like my thoughts or the time or the weather or my mind look
I can't keep going back
Keep falling into your trap
I'm letting go of the past
I feel you're slipping away
So I will force you to stay
Until I feel okay
Do you know what it's like when you push feelings aside
No one really knows what's really going inside
And it hurts me just to show that you are on my mind
And it kills me although it makes me feel so alive
Can't keep thinking should start drinking
Take another sip make me feel like I'm living
Take me on a trip I wanna start trippin
Take another pill and reality becomes fiction
You're reminding me of something I'm wishing to forget
Wish I could find the words would've told you how I felt
Always in a fight my opponent is myself
And it feels like I'm losing but I gotta black belt
My ego is my weakness got a lot of secrets
Can't tell you nun cause you can't really keep it
We can start to run but reality will beat us
That's why we should stop and let the world deceit us
I can't keep going back
Keep falling into your trap
I'm letting go of the past
I feel you're slipping away
So I will force you to stay
Until I feel okay
