My past is catching up to me
I cant escape it
Theres a lot that still needs addressing
And further explanations
Swear to god
I gave my all until I couldn't take it
I know I'm in the wrong
I got involved in
Things I knew were dangerous
And now I pay the cost
These demons on my case
Most the time feel like I'm lost
Or at least out of place
But in the midst of the applause
It feel like I'm okay
Make me feel like I'm a boss
With that look on her face
My year started with a loss
That caused me lots of pain
But that okay it showed me all the things
I got to change
My ways caught up to me
But I ain't gonna take the blame
How am I to give it to you raw
While trynna play it safe
I do this day by day
Best believe I've made mistakes
Recipe for danger pain
And ecstasy that quickly fades
Rest in peace to who I was
Soon I'll change who I've become
Never stop growing
I'll look back at this and think its dumb
I have just begun
I got a lot to go
I will not succumb
to what I can't control
I do it till its done
And not a second less
Hella stressed
Heart is on the run
My mind won't let me rest
I like the tingle on my feet
While walking through the sand
I like the little things
And how they help me understand
Breaking bad way before
I probably should've fam
But thats okay
Cuz I grew up to be a wanted man
I put effort time and money in
To make it work
I gave everything I had
Not even half returned
But I kept going down this path
And made my dad concerned
He fears I'm going way too fast
And that I'll crash and burn
He say I need to go back to college
I can't concur
Cuz fuck a class
that teaches shit that I don't have to learn
And fuck the school
They do not care beyond the cash they earn
And fuck the system
Trynna put me between last and first
My dad gone say the songs suck
Once I say fuck
Sometimes I gotta let it out
To stay calm
Its out of hand Like a brain
When they face palm
I slap a fan
If they dare to get my name wrong
I act first
And think second
When I'm dealt a dual
I throw dirt
Then throw a fit when
I am told the truth
I've been worse
I've been better
I've been self removed
I'm still hurt
I still get up
Trynna self improve
We read each other like a book
But now she just a chapter
This ain't no fairy tale
No happily ever after
A dagger in the spine
Will make you think twice
I sit tight
smoking on this loud
so I can sleep right
I pass my days
With passing jays
While on the way
To greater states of mind
I'm just living my life
I said I pass my days
With passing jays
While on the way
To greater states of mind
Bitch I'm just living my life
I pass my days
With passing jays
While on the way
To greater states of mind
I'm just living my life
I said I pass my days
With passing jays
While on the way
To greater states of mind
Bitch I'm just living my life
I pass my days
With passing jays
While on the way
To greater states of mind
I'm just living my life
I said I pass my days
With passing jays
While on the way
To greater states of mind
Bitch I'm just living my life
